In the silence
the asking to hear
When first you do it
it is terrifying

We spend all day
avoiding 
the Quiet
within

What we truely are
What we truely want
Gets covered
with greasy coats of sensibility
and 
avoidance of rage

When you surrender
into the stillness
it can be overpowering
All the parts so carefully mothballed away
begging for reconciliation

It offers freedom
To see the worst
Then know
underneath that
Is You
Observing 
the delusion

When I stop and hear
the stories of my body and heart
my mind would not once let me have
I forgive the broken and embarrassed parts 
and embrace the gentle moments of pure joy
It is the most important conversation I have

Our treasure within
cannot be hurt by the sooty smudges
and punched-in corners of life
the failures and shouting matches
the hurt eyes 
and fallen shoulders

It just keeps holding and gently waiting
to be heard
for the memory to return 
that we are vulnerable Love

Get Quiet 
Ring out and rinse away
distrust
and too many words
Then..
Come home to yourself
You beautiful being x

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It lands lightly
when it happens
Your eyes 
when they narrow
twist a cog in my being
a newness

So light
easy
slow

I like this
gentle play
of new friendship

I wonder about you
between the traffic lights
and 
waiting for chai

The depth of your voice
a new whisper
in my veins

I think I like this part best
before we know each other
While it is still a book
unopened

I wonder how your touch would be
Do you want it?
An interrupt to chaos
A lover to savour lightly
Would you lay aside your scars
as you release?

I think you understand
I am not usual
No need or want for the ordinary expression
of ownership
of holding
of more than presence

Your pain pulls
an old wind up musicbox tune I used to play
The desire to escape from the adult self
I know that exquisite alone feeling
I do

Or is this merely a sweet unreal thought
an escape from routine
fodder for poetry
opening warmth in the chest
and the loins?
Just a floating smile 
in an ordered day

Either way
I am grateful for the energy you bring
If only for a heartbeat in time

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You know how
to set yourself aside
from me
from others
get quiet

I feel you 
through the day
and the night
I do not have the luxury
of not sensing your shadowed twists 
and turns

You snake inside my being
whisper into my belly
my throat
as you swim through your day

I feel your elation
joy and despair
Your moan of pain 
And desire for another
And yet
I stay...

Perhaps we had an agreement
before we found each other
that I would guide you
and you me

A contract we made
to keep each other climbing
up the mountain past fear and chaos
into connection with the Divine
You Sky Father
Me Earth Mother

It is tiring
this weaving into your DNA
sometimes it yanks
a great thick chain 
between us
burns our wrists

When do we say "Enough"
Enough now..
and free each other
rip Earth from Sky
allowing mist to gather between 
our exposed limbs

I would miss you
my ancient Love
And yet
I hunger
for a gentler expression
soft fingertips touching
simplicity

I crave some peace 
a tranquil dance
For an expression of life
without battle

To lay down my great sacred armour
And
To lay down instead
in gentler arms

Will I have failed
if I gift myself a new peace?
Let you go to wrangle
and rage with your demons
and lift your own Angel to the sky?

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www.veronicafarmer.org

I make you nervous
With my search into your soul
My lioness purr
Cracking open your sensible life

See, I remember your eyes
From lives long before these bones 
and skin

I look at you and remember
when we loved each other
Laying on mossy ground
Our legs entwined 
beneath a different sky

Your scent arousing
So many more stars
Trees that once touched the heavens
Our breath in a smile made one

You think me naive
The way I love
This much
You don't believe I could want nothing
other than your smile

To love this way
This lightly
Is all I have  
and know

Your wretched hold on the day's small dramas
of an appropriate life
Avoiding struggle
And yet addicted to it
Makes you wary 

I am
Too obvious
Too simple

You seek a more complicated muse
you can adore from a distance
Safer for you
Than being seen
By my flashlight

You seek me out
Ask for more
And yet the thought of me irritates and scratches at your mind
your skin

So you choose
A different kind of heart
Who would twist your sheets in uneasy sleep
Escalate exquisite yearning

I seek no yearning
or holding
No piece of you 
other than your playful presence

So 
I let you go
To rage and battle some more with life
Until you are done with it

I will see you again
We will dance once more
soon enough
in yet another time

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