I make you nervous... a poem by Veronica Farmer

I make you nervous
With my search into your soul
My lioness purr
Cracking open your sensible life

See, I remember your eyes
From lives long before these bones 
and skin

I look at you and remember
when we loved each other
Laying on mossy ground
Our legs entwined 
beneath a different sky

Your scent arousing
So many more stars
Trees that once touched the heavens
Our breath in a smile made one

You think me naive
The way I love
This much
You don't believe I could want nothing
other than your smile

To love this way
This lightly
Is all I have  
and know

Your wretched hold on the day's small dramas
of an appropriate life
Avoiding struggle
And yet addicted to it
Makes you wary 

I am
Too obvious
Too simple

You seek a more complicated muse
you can adore from a distance
Safer for you
Than being seen
By my flashlight

You seek me out
Ask for more
And yet the thought of me irritates and scratches at your mind
your skin

So you choose
A different kind of heart
Who would twist your sheets in uneasy sleep
Escalate exquisite yearning

I seek no yearning
or holding
No piece of you 
other than your playful presence

So 
I let you go
To rage and battle some more with life
Until you are done with it

I will see you again
We will dance once more
soon enough
in yet another time

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